I was like this last year, it got to the point where I had 50% attendance at college and I had to drop out. For the months that followed I didn’t leave the house at all. It’s only in the past 2 months that I’ve reconnected with people and started pushing myself to go out again.
Honestly the only way to overcome this is to face it.
I found it easier going out in the rain at first. When it’s raining you find that people don’t notice one another, no one will look at you in the street. You can hide behind an umbrella or a hood and just concentrate on getting to your destination.
Having a ‘prop’ also helps. I found I could go out when I had my dog with me, I felt less exposed, less alone. Often when elderly people develop agoraphobia, they find having a walking stick or trolley helps them when they go out, it’s the same principle. Somehow it’s comforting having something with you that makes you feel protected.
Your friends won’t go away. They’re probably worried sick and wondering what they can do for the best. You have to approach people, message them and explain what’s happening. Or just ask if you can call them, or arrange to meet up. Maybe they could come to your house. Once you start reconnecting with people everything else gets much easier.
I don’t know what advice to give you about getting dressed etc. One of my main struggles at the moment is with my self perception. I still only wear oversized clothes, dress in the dark, etc. I avoid mirrors. I just feel so huge all the time and overly aware of myself. Since I’ve been put back on prozac I’ve felt more enabled to get on with it and not spend hours obsessing over how I look, but I’m still really struggling with body dysmorphic thoughts. You should go to your doctor about this, medication can really help and so can therapy.
<3 I’m obsessed with it haha x
fuck yea vahri now u part of my crew
how was it? why pity me? ugh whut
i didn’t catch a word of that
i’m hardly obsessed with her lololol you’re the one reading huge fucklong posts on her and spending your time trying to turn people against her HMM
idgaf i think she’s lovely and beautiful and tbh people who spread shit about her and try to sabotage her reputation are clearly just jealous as fuck
Bullshit
I love her. She’s so, so lovely and probably the most gorgeous person I’ve ever seen. She’s just perfect omg ~fangirl~
